Tuesday, November 21, 2006
i'm so confuse and lost...the world is spinning around me and i am clueless about what is happening.. nowadays i always feel so weird, so out of control, so helpless.. like i couldn't do anything... even if i did they all seemed to go so wrong... either i'm too tired to do them well or otherwise.. i don't know what is happening... it seems like everyday is passing by with me being confuse about it.. i cannot figure out things that are happening to me.. they just come so suddenly, catching me of my guard, leaving me so confuse... i am really very confuse and helpless... i don't like this feeling... help me out....should i just continue the journey that is filled with confusion??
Sunday, November 19, 2006
my life as a sec3 pupil officially ends on fri 17/11/06.but my sec 4 life don't start just yet cos its still the year 2oo6!quote harsha"as long as it's still 2006 we are still sec 3/1"...guess its quite true bah.. the sec4 s ended their 'o' level on fri... so gd... nxt year would be my turn! hehe..
this year seems to have past so slow for me.. but quite an adventure for me too.. i face many problems... some made me learnt something from them while others are there to serve it's purpose of hurting me... nvm though because everything is over now and what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger... i became stronger because of all that i had gone through.. i learn n i change.. both bad n good.. i learn to accept things more easily(as in the bad things that are happening to me).. but now i have problem controlling my mind and sometimes say things i did not want to.. (hope i didn't offend anyone... if i did i'm really sorry as i don't mean what i say..) there are of course other changes to my life too like i don't smile and laugh that often now... i hate that but there is just nothing to cheer me up to that extend of making me laugh my head off.. i know changes are unavoidable throughout life but i don't like some of the changes that is happening to my surrounding and me.. for e.g. i don't want and hate the school moving to the west coast site next year.. its so far for me.. i can't walk to school anymore.. haiz.. can't wake up late and still manage to reach school on time anymore.. bet i will have to do detention very often next year... hahaz.. saw the new school site that day.. it wasn't that impressive.. i still like the old school/current school better.. i like the small 'hill' facing the school track..from the expressway,it seems like the school is built on that 'hill' and its so nice,so beautiful,so magical... i have so much feelings for this school.. it contains all the memories i had from sec 1 to sec 3... nw i have to go to a total new school where i have completely no feelings for... how am i gonna spent my last secondary year in that school.. i don't like the new school... but i have no choice.. finally the year 2006 is coming to an end... its seems like decades had past.. i admit this year was a tough one for me.. coping with the stress,the new class,new friends and new environment... but i have come to like 3/1... 3/1 was so much better than i had expected.. (maybe i always had the habit of expecting the worst) =P.. i had a lot of fun in the class with my friends.. and i get to know my old friends better one way or the other..of course i haven forgotten my dear 2/4!!! unlike the 'you know who'... 2/4 chalet coming up... 10 more days...!its one or if not the longest post i have posted on my blog... life goes on no matter what.. so try to live everyday happily.. =)
Friday, November 10, 2006
finish watching goong abt a wk ago but is still so crazy over it.. its lyk e best drama i ever watch.. hehe.. really lyk e show a lot. =) too bad goong 2 is nt having e 4 main cast back..haiz..todae aft sch was veri hyper n crazy..for dunnoe wat reason oso.. hope i can b tt happy everyday..was so long ago wen i manage to laugh tt happily.. hahaz.. i really really want to b able to laugh happily at least once everyday but it seems a bit hard..but i'm nt tt moody compare to starting of e year le(at least i tink) hope wen e official holiday come i will get to enjoy myself more rather than do homework or kip going for remedials.. den i wld get to hav fun n RELAX!1 more week to go b4 e extended 3 wks of sch wld b over n 19 more daes to 2/4 chalet!!!!yeay!!!counting down.. do what you want to do before it is too late
