heyhey~ i here to update again... nw i hav lesser n lesser time to cum n update my blog.. no choice i'm in upper sec nw..haiz.. btw hols has started abt 3 daes le..so far i hav been going to sch juz lyk normal sch daes or even worst.. ahhhhh! y? i tot dere is a chinese saying tt sae xiu xi shi wei le zhou geng zhang de lu.. u call tt rest..? i don't.. 1st week is packed wif sch remedial,lucky 2nd n 3rd week is better..
nwadaes i feel tt i'm nt e real me.. i juz feel so numb.. so " no-feeling". i may laugh.. but i noe dey are nt true laughter tt brings oli happiness.. i noe tt beneath e laughters r saddness, confusion, anger, frustrations. i don't laugh whole-hearteredly animore.. i smile at ppl i noe.. but e smiles i had feel so weird to me.. i wan to cheer ppl up wif my laughters, with my smiles.. but i can't cheer myself up wif dose.. so how can i except ppl to feel better wen dey c my smiles n hear my laughters..? i can b happily laughing n smiling one moment n e next, i juz becum so depress, so sad or even angry.. i don't wan tt n i don't noe y tt happen but i juz can't help it..
mayb it's all e stress, i no u ppl r oso veri stress up abt tings, studies, n other stuffs.. i juz hope i'm nt e oli one feeling lyk tt.. i feel weird.. ahhhhhh!!! so feel lyk going to e beach n listening to e sound of waves crashing, feel e wind, n shout out all my frustrations..
i feel so numb abt everyting..
